Friday, March 2, 2012

Just Enough Light for the Step We're On

Last week was a tough week. Let's just say that by Sunday I was in the fetal position crying myself to sleep. Yes, I'm a bit dramatic! But as Chad pointed out, I'm overwhelmed and stressed too. Sometimes a good cry (and nap) is what we need to physically and emotionally deal with great change.

In the thick of it last week, I knew to run this race well, I had to find something to be thankful for with Aria. I don't know if any of you have ever been there, but I was so caught up in the emotion of it all, even thanksgiving was hard to come by concerning her. This just added to my mommy guilt, and with hands up I told Chad, "The only thing I can think of to be thankful for right now is that Aria is getting healthier!" Chad, in his role as calm, cool husband reminded me... "What about her learning about Jesus? Isn't that a positive?" (Ugh, sometimes his wisdom drives me both batty as well as deeply grateful! How can one wise statement hit so hard?) Yes, that of course is a positive.

He goes on, "What about last week? Didn't you have many positive days with her last week?" He's right. That particular week I remember thinking how far we've progressed with our little girl, and how wonderful things were going.

"So hold onto that, Kristin. That's your light right now. We have to have some light when things seem so dark." And there it is again, my husband's wisdom. God is giving us, each day, just enough light for the step we're on. Darkness cannot overtake this light, because this light is from Christ and IS Christ himself!

Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life. John 8:12 (emphasis added)

This week we've had a fantastic week with Aria. I'm so grateful for how far we've come with our little girl. I admit, gratitude within the light is easier to have when things are going well and light is all around us. But I'm reminded now, even if I just have a candle glowing in the dark, I still have light. Just enough light for the step we're on.

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